Did you ever have faith in something just because? That's me today. There is a very good chance that we might not be able to go to Ethiopia until late, late this year, maybe even next year. We might not even get a referral until the last quarter of the year. Anything could happen between now and the end of our adoption. There are a LOT of unknown factors in adoption, both international and domestic. Some people drive themselves mad with the idea of waiting over a year for the end of an adoption or balk at the extended time periods. I've already shed so many tears from our infertility struggles and the subsequent losses. I am quite familiar with feeling frustrated with unknown processes and bleak prognoses.

 
Therefore, since  I've been there and done that, I am choosing a different way. I am choosing to be hopeful in the face of trouble. It's not easy. Sometimes people think I am foolish and naive to be hopeful when the reality is things don't look good. I figure, I can't do anything to change when we bring our children home. All I can change is my own attitude and how I handle the circumstances I am in. Waking up every day hoping that this day might be different than yesterday, that this might be the day I get "the call" won't change my timeline in the least, but it will change me.

So I ask you all again for your prayers, your lighting of candles and burning incense, or whatever expression of faith you have. Or you can send me any and all words of encouragement!!