In case you have wondered, I highly do not recommend getting caught with a MWI (Mothering With Illness) It is very hard. I starting feeling ill on Thanksgiving morning. Ok, yes, I am hard core and still managed to cook up the holiday feast, but I was able to eat one plateful of food and drink one half a glass of wine before retiring to bed. Today is the first day I feel somewhat human. The flu is a terrible thing. I manage to stave off those nasty viruses for YEARS but I was finally taken down. Ugh! I stayed away from the sweet munchkins for their own good. And, frankly, because I could barely keep my head up. Thank goodness the family was in town. They all got plenty of time with the kiddos, especially since Mommy was in no shape to do anything. On Sunday, after everyone had long gone home, Daddy went to serve at church. I figured, "I've been sick for three days. I'm sure I am well enough to take care of the kids while you are gone."

When Tadd got home, the kids were happily playing, but Mommy was laid out on the couch.

I am finally on the mend (I hope) and am praying the kids don't get sick...again. Wow, people weren't kidding when they warned us about passing illness back and forth. It is like a vicious cycle..and the babies haven't started school yet!

I am usually a pretty good patient, except for one thing. I get melancholy and introspective. Like a beatnik. All I would need is black, skinny jeans and my bongo drums. It is my sickie version of thinking too much. The thing is, I do have something to be thinking about that I am finally ready to share. I've been suspicious of my job status for a while. I've made improvements to the original role and now things are running smoothly administratively. Add on the fact that I've been on the team for about two years and I figured it was time to look for something new. Well, my boss sat me down not long ago and let me know that I should probably put a fire under that search. Our executive is moving, the work is shifting, there is pressures to cut budgets, etc. etc. I am not being laid off yet, but it is a very real possibility. My manager is being supportive in the search and is offering any help he can provide. But I am left wondering, should I stay where I am at? Maybe this is an opportunity to depart from Corporate America and do something different. Maybe focus on writing. Or auditioning more. Or teaching acting and coaching. Or all of the above. I also sell jewelry part-time, maybe I could really build up that business. More importantly, I could try staying home with my kids. Our childcare bill is quite expensive. And though she is very good, it is hard to reconcile the amount we pay in order to allow me to stay in my cubicle.

On the flip side, we are a two-income family. Could we still live comfortably without one of those incomes? Especially in this uncertain economy? We have a nice life and it would be no fun to have to cut back on everything. What about insurance? Retirement savings? Dreams of being free from a corporate life are not as easy as they used to be, not once you are grown up with children. Yet, I know people do it quite successfully. Then again, then decision might be made for me.

So that's what's been on my mind (in between sleeping of course) As of today, I am just praying and meditating about it. Trusting that the right opportunity will come. If you have any words of encouragement, please send them my way. Or if a similar situation happened to you, words of wisdom would be appreciated as well. Of course, if you know about a good job opportunity that might be a great fit, give me a shout.