It never ceases to amaze me how many times I jump through hoops for projects involving other people that I don't want to "let down" and how rarely I do that for myself. I am obviously getting better at it, though. Though I am exhausted and I should be sleeping, I forced myself to stay up and write my 3 pages. Ok, to be fair, it is at about 2.5 right now, but I wanted to get this post in before midnight. And I am probably going to skip the scene writing (though I DID find a really awesome sounding play concept that I can start writing on, so I did not totally forsake scriptwriting) I am giving myself a break on that, but the important part is I did it. I could have blown it off, but it is pretty insane to blow off myself. I mean, I have to live with myself everyday, right? Why would I be so worried about disappointing some other person but not worry about disappointing myself? Now I don't have to...I wrote and I'm proud.
Bonus: I added a really, REALLY intense scene that took my novel in a new direction. Hold on to something, I might have a real plot brewing!